Why Doesn’t Anyone Talk About Lost Friendships?

It’s funny. I never knew you could suffer from an heartbreak because of a friendship lost. Man, that sh*t hurts.

You would always smile and look at your watch. You would never want the time to end. You just wanted to be in that moment with that “someone” you called your “best friend.” And then time actually stops. You’re there. Your best friend is there. The both of you are talking. But not to each other. You are talking to his voice in your head. Replaying all those old conversations. He, on the other hand, is talking to his “girl.” It’s funny. They say that nothing can break the bond between two friends. They’re wrong. Love is blind? That’s true. You forget all the people you were with before. All of a sudden we are the bad ones. We are the wrong ones.

We always meet different kind of people in different stages of our lives. Then why does it hurt when you lose one person? Because you were not just acquaintances. You were connected through something much beyond. You met many people, made many friends. But you chose to make that one person your “Best Friend.” It not just hurts the one who is left behind. Deep down, it hurts the one who left. The only difference is that the former accepts it, the latter doesn’t. Sometimes you learn life’s toughest lessons from the ones who hurt you. You learn the right lessons from the wrong people. We all make mistakes. When we make mistakes, we realize who stays and who leaves.

Now everyone walks with a knife in their hands. Common fear among youngsters today? Betrayal. One hand might hold you, the other might stab you. What’s the difference between an enemy and a friend? It doesn’t hurt when an enemy betrays you or leaves you. But when a friend does, it’s the end. Why did I lose my friend? Was I betrayed? Yes. I was betrayed. Not by my best friend. I was betrayed by my emotions. By his words. By the promises we made. By the memories we made. By those old conversations we had. By those empty thoughts we shared.

There are four of us now. Excluding him. Well, we did try to make it work. But you can’t get the trust back. You can’t keep your mouth shut. His tongue betrayed his heart. And I’m glad it did. At least I know what place I stood at in his circle. We don’t talk now. Even if we do, it’s all academic related. I would want to thank him though (not sarcastic). He taught me a tough lesson. That we are often let down by the most trusted people and loved by the most unexpected ones. Some make us cry for things we haven’t done, while others ignore our faults and just want to see our smiles. Some leave us when we need them the most, while others stay even when we ask them to leave. The world is a mixture of people. We just need to know which hand to hold and which hand to let go. After all, that’s life; learning to hold on and learning to let go.

My message? Give the wrong people a chance. They won’t leave without teaching you a lesson.

~Queen ‘B’ / Consulting Blogger